So here's a thought.... I know this is crazy, but I am actually thinking... *maybe* of auditioning for American Idol next season. I mean, if I don't have anything serious on the audition dates, and if one of the audition locations is somewhere in a Northeast..... I think I should go. Maybe if I could somehow get a group of close friends to come with me, we could make it like, a road trip. Stay in a hotel room for a few nights (sing a "Hotel Song" and write on some "Hotel Paper".... ;) ), and take turns driving, if it is like, more than a 3-hour drive away. I just think it would be really fun, and it would give me an opportunity actually to audition. I mean, if I made it... to Simon, Randy and Paula- great! If I made it further, superb! But if not, hey, I had a road trip with friends, good times, good memories, and prob good pix knowing me... and I had one more audition experience.
I dunno... I just feel like even though this music therapy thing has def become a reality for me and a dream of mine, it is not my only dream. I have many more... I actually began to make a life list (a la Ellen), and I have over 100 dreams/things I wish to accomplish before I die. Some are def reasonable, and I know will happen. Others are a reach, but I am sure I can accomplish a good deal of those... Still others, are way way waaaaaaay above my level. But I wrote them down anyways, because I believe in reaching for the stars.
I mean, gaining stardom from American Idol is not exactly my "dream" dream.... But I mean, let's face it. What other opportunities for getting noticed do I really have? Open mics here, but no one will go with me because no one lives near me... So those are out. Plus, they might get old after a while. I dunno. I don't know anyone who owns a record label..... yet. And I have tried recording my songs on my computer, but the quality is crap... and you can prob hear some member of my family shouting in the background, or some dog yapping, or a police car buzzing.... I just basically want an opportunity to record a CD, sell it to enough people so that I can pocket some money, and give the rest to some sort of charity or good cause (I haven't decided what yet...), and more importantly, I just really want a chance to touch people's lives. Which of course, means that I kind of just made a full circle here, because with music therapy I obv would be touching people's lives with my music.... Just... in a different way. So I don't know. Both are appealling... in their own ways. I dream of both.... and more. Climbing Mt. Kilimanjaro, for instance. Meeting Danielle Rose.... Getting married..... Having kids..... Being the musical guest on Ellen..... Making a religious/spiritual pilgrimage.... Learning how to play bar chords on guitar without complaining about my stupid non-bendy thumb which seriously messes that up for me (now that I am actually trying)........ Touching people's lives with my music.
...Being an instrument of God.
It is Lent, and honestly... I am thankful.